three vivid dreams since the new year. all had jacob.

i think i might have missed out on posting about two previous vivid dreams. well now there's a third and i think it's about time i wrote about them. i have been meaning to but then my waking life has had that dream-like quality as well so i guess i can be forgiven for momentarily neglecting my dreaming life. (forgive me morpheus)

the first dream was during the first week of the year.

i was in walking in our old neighborhood and it was night. i didn't know where i was going except that i knew i was going somewhere. as i walked along the nearly empty street i suddenly found myself with a companion. at first it was a stranger and then i thought how could this stranger be my boyfriend (because somehow he was supposed to be my boyfriend) and then i closed my eyes and when i opened them it was jacob. i then felt happy and proceeded to link my arm with his and we walked along peacefully. dream shift. night was falling and the monsters (as in, monsters from games like Resident Evil and the like) were beginning to come out. people panicked and ran out of the room where i was. jacob was with me. but jacob and i decided to fight the monsters. since we were both gamers we had a good strategy and we set up the unfamiliar room for defense and fighting. i gathered up as much objects i could that could be used as weapons. then we fought with the monsters. one female zombie got close enough to stab jacob in the back but i shouted a warning and jacob was able to kill her and only sustained a minor injury. we fought until the morning sun peeked through the windows and the monsters seemed to melt away like smoke with the coming of the new day. i woke up.

the second dream was sometime during the second week of the year.

i was a psychologically disturbed person. more accurately, i dreamed i was trapped in a version of myself that had psychological problems. i was extremely anti-social, extremely angry, extremely unhappy. people avoided me. no one wanted to talk to me. i went through the dream partly trying to break out of my condition and partly pushing and scaring everyone away. then at some point jacob came into the picture and he befriended me. and then he was suddenly the only person i could be with. he calmed me and made it his responsibility to take care of me. people were surprised and could not fathom why. i remember feeling the calmness seeping through me like a soft wave washing over me.

and the third time was last night.

there was a huge storm. for some reason i was in my parents' house. and for some reason the sea could be seen if i looked out of my old room's windows. people were evacuating because the sea was threatening to churn up a tsunami. but the people in our house were not ready nor were they panicking enough. i saw the first big wave gather speed. my dad went out of the house to get the car which was, for some reason, parked farther about two streets away. i worried about my dad because if the waves hit, he and the car would be taken away. i told him to hurry. the first wave struck but the water only reached ankle high by the time it got to our place. i yelled "stop!" with all the power i could muster, literally willing the wave to stop.

and it did, it literally paused in front of me. i looked towards the sea and thought i could stop the whole storm. i thought i could go out there right by the edge and stop it.

a second wave started to build up, and then it crashed. as it thundered towards us i shouted "stop!" only it ended up in japanese ("yame!"). the wave hesitated for a brief moment, and then it washed over the whole front of the house. my dad wasn't back yet and i was really worried.

a third wave started to build up and from the same direction i saw a familiar car running towards the house and it stopped right in front of me. it was jacob. i ran to him and asked what he was doing and he said he came to get me and my family. he said he had enough room in his car to take all of us and take us somewhere safe. for a while i was just staring at him trying to digest what he said and what he did. then i started calling out to my sister and my mom and i told jacob we had to find my dad. he seemed so calm that i started to calm down. in fact i started feeling happy that he was there. and i kept on thinking over and over how he always saved the day. and then i woke up.