well, jacob, of course, is a large part of my happy, happy, happy. he is just the sweetest and funniest and makes me laugh a lot and love a lot.
and then there's the newly-repaired PS3... and the discovery that PS3 games have dropped their prices by 30-40%...
and then there's the little seed of an idea that could grow into a giant money-bearing tree... and a much much much happier work-life.
and there's this little hilarious moment yesterday while jacob and i were at the mall. we heard a loud "psst" and saw jushiro laughing so hard because he "caught" us. jacob had his arms around me while we were walking and jushiro happened to be in the same area. he was laughing and joking around and accusing jacob of keeping secrets and he was simply ecstatic at having stumbled into us. i guess it was such a relief to finally have it all out. --- and to think this happens the very same day i finally made myself put up that photo of me and jacob on my vision/collage wall in the "love" area. for some reason i've put it off. and then i finally put it up and now everything is just becoming even more real and solid.
i think i'm going to put up as section on my wall for that little seed of money-bearing tree... and then a cooking/baking section, and then also *amas veritas wedding march tune here* ^_____^
Monday, June 22, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
yay! friday!
i would like to say it means i get to sleep but with dvd movies and jacob around... in any case it's waking time spent really well ^__^
i believe i progressed a lot of things at work today so i feel pretty accomplished ^______^'
i need to gas up and then also go to the supermarket. maybe later tonight. maybe i'll ask jacob to tag along.
i'm hooked on 24 season 5. tv series in my iPod touch sounds like the best idea. i hope they have the CSIs.
i believe i progressed a lot of things at work today so i feel pretty accomplished ^______^'
i need to gas up and then also go to the supermarket. maybe later tonight. maybe i'll ask jacob to tag along.
i'm hooked on 24 season 5. tv series in my iPod touch sounds like the best idea. i hope they have the CSIs.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
work-at-home day
i realized a lot of things yesterday.
yesterday was a work-at-home day. my boss called it Pure Time. i referred to it as Turning-The-Tide of crazy work.
i realized, first of all, that i need at least one work-at-home day a week. it helps my brain a lot, gives me perspective, and significantly lessens my agitation especially during high-stress periods.
i realized that developing a very good proposal can take half a day. but then you can sleep the sleep of the just afterward.
i realized that so far, i have been the only person in the team trying to figure out how to do things more easily, conveniently and efficiently. most of everyone can be pretty happy with the usual. a handful can even be quite resistant to tweaking routines.
i realized that there could actually be a far simpler solution to all the manpower/equipment/workload challenge we are facing right now.
i realized (again) that i don't have to kill myself many times over to prove my worth all over again.
i realized that i am really pretty good at what i do. and i also believe i am not the only one who can do it. the universe is generous with gifts, and i believe it likes having more of a good thing. i guess i just really need to find the 'others'.
i realized that love really can bring that much positivity and optimism.
i realized (again) that jacob is the one of the bestest, most wonderful story that has ever happened in my entire life.
yesterday was a work-at-home day. my boss called it Pure Time. i referred to it as Turning-The-Tide of crazy work.
i realized, first of all, that i need at least one work-at-home day a week. it helps my brain a lot, gives me perspective, and significantly lessens my agitation especially during high-stress periods.
i realized that developing a very good proposal can take half a day. but then you can sleep the sleep of the just afterward.
i realized that so far, i have been the only person in the team trying to figure out how to do things more easily, conveniently and efficiently. most of everyone can be pretty happy with the usual. a handful can even be quite resistant to tweaking routines.
i realized that there could actually be a far simpler solution to all the manpower/equipment/workload challenge we are facing right now.
i realized (again) that i don't have to kill myself many times over to prove my worth all over again.
i realized that i am really pretty good at what i do. and i also believe i am not the only one who can do it. the universe is generous with gifts, and i believe it likes having more of a good thing. i guess i just really need to find the 'others'.
i realized that love really can bring that much positivity and optimism.
i realized (again) that jacob is the one of the bestest, most wonderful story that has ever happened in my entire life.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
today's horoscopes
from astrology.com
"You really need to push your brain today -- you're capable of great things! New ideas are flooding your mind so it may be wise for you to step back and see if you can get some help organizing them."
from horoscope.com
"It's raining on Aquarius's highway, but enjoy the drive. After the rain the sun will come out and the flowers will bloom, just like you. Once again being unique has paid off for Aquarius, and it's going to take you on another journey. So, sit back and enjoy the ride."
from chinesezodiachoroscope.com
"The circumstances will impose a renovation in your work and a change in your ingrained habits; adapt yourself without bad grace."
from astrology.proastro.con
"Additional responsibilities are coming your way soon. For the moment you will enjoy a relaxed sense in your home life and domestic harmony as well. You may find yourself wanting to spend more time at home just now--just getting away from the stress and struggle of every day life. Overall your luck should be good during this period too."
from dailyhoroscopes.com
"Your determined efforts and the action to accomplish your goals are the most active parts of your personality. You are alert and intent and determined to meet a schedule that you have created. You do put forth much effort to be quick, precise and as clear as possible. There is however, something missing and you may feel incomplete. By the time this work day is ended you may feel you have missed the longer visits with the public or with your co-workers. It may be too difficult to keep up such a pace every day; consider an adjustment to your personal time when it comes to completing your goals. It is hard to find someone that interacts with others as well as you. A little exercise this evening or playing with the family pet brings stress relief."
from astrocenter.com
"Look before you leap today, dear Aquarius. There is a very good chance of falling if you are not careful. Errors can easily be avoided by simply taking the time to think things through carefully before you act. Also, though you are great about starting projects, you're not so great when it comes to finishing them. Today would be an excellent time to practice your follow-through."
from freehoroscopedaily.com
"You have been driven lately to produce results. The only certainty in life is uncertainty when it comes to working towards an end result. Since results are not guaranteed, the work itself must become the important thing and not what happens as a result. Enjoy the process but don't base your sense of accomplishment on the outcome, which you cannot completely control. A multitude of things may occur beyond your control, others may take credit for your actions, your plans can be interrupted by unforeseen consequences, complete ignorance may prevail. Make the process more important than the end result and you will be less stressed and get more out of it."
"You really need to push your brain today -- you're capable of great things! New ideas are flooding your mind so it may be wise for you to step back and see if you can get some help organizing them."
from horoscope.com
"It's raining on Aquarius's highway, but enjoy the drive. After the rain the sun will come out and the flowers will bloom, just like you. Once again being unique has paid off for Aquarius, and it's going to take you on another journey. So, sit back and enjoy the ride."
from chinesezodiachoroscope.com
"The circumstances will impose a renovation in your work and a change in your ingrained habits; adapt yourself without bad grace."
from astrology.proastro.con
"Additional responsibilities are coming your way soon. For the moment you will enjoy a relaxed sense in your home life and domestic harmony as well. You may find yourself wanting to spend more time at home just now--just getting away from the stress and struggle of every day life. Overall your luck should be good during this period too."
from dailyhoroscopes.com
"Your determined efforts and the action to accomplish your goals are the most active parts of your personality. You are alert and intent and determined to meet a schedule that you have created. You do put forth much effort to be quick, precise and as clear as possible. There is however, something missing and you may feel incomplete. By the time this work day is ended you may feel you have missed the longer visits with the public or with your co-workers. It may be too difficult to keep up such a pace every day; consider an adjustment to your personal time when it comes to completing your goals. It is hard to find someone that interacts with others as well as you. A little exercise this evening or playing with the family pet brings stress relief."
from astrocenter.com
"Look before you leap today, dear Aquarius. There is a very good chance of falling if you are not careful. Errors can easily be avoided by simply taking the time to think things through carefully before you act. Also, though you are great about starting projects, you're not so great when it comes to finishing them. Today would be an excellent time to practice your follow-through."
from freehoroscopedaily.com
"You have been driven lately to produce results. The only certainty in life is uncertainty when it comes to working towards an end result. Since results are not guaranteed, the work itself must become the important thing and not what happens as a result. Enjoy the process but don't base your sense of accomplishment on the outcome, which you cannot completely control. A multitude of things may occur beyond your control, others may take credit for your actions, your plans can be interrupted by unforeseen consequences, complete ignorance may prevail. Make the process more important than the end result and you will be less stressed and get more out of it."
brewing solutions
i'm in a bit of a limbo state. it's where i find myself when i'm trying to solve problems. or more positively, puzzles. it's actually work. and i'm logging in these limbo thinking periods into my manhours.
right now i'm marinating multiple problems/ puzzles in my head. all need to be resolved as soon as possible. more specifically, within the week.
i have not yet written anything down. i know i am ready to produce the tangible solutions when i start writing things down. but right now, everything is still pulsing about in my head.
right now i'm marinating multiple problems/ puzzles in my head. all need to be resolved as soon as possible. more specifically, within the week.
i have not yet written anything down. i know i am ready to produce the tangible solutions when i start writing things down. but right now, everything is still pulsing about in my head.
alright, i'll blog in the middle of work
and maybe rant a bit. well, not really rant. more of grumble mumbly.
it seemed that i just blinked and then suddenly there's a fresh load of work pouring in coming in from nowhere. this week i have to deal with three project briefs demanding three proposals.
one of my seniors is taking her wedding leave for practically a whole month and one of my juniors is under-performing. i have discussed matters with my other senior and we agreed we may need to graduate our ways of working into total project independence. so totally no more "buddy" system in whatever form. i become everyone's sounding board instead. which i don't mind.
but for the meantime i have about six projects to juggle among two and a half people.
and three broken video cameras.
all will be well. all will be well. all will be well... *positive thoughts! positive thoughts!*
it seemed that i just blinked and then suddenly there's a fresh load of work pouring in coming in from nowhere. this week i have to deal with three project briefs demanding three proposals.
one of my seniors is taking her wedding leave for practically a whole month and one of my juniors is under-performing. i have discussed matters with my other senior and we agreed we may need to graduate our ways of working into total project independence. so totally no more "buddy" system in whatever form. i become everyone's sounding board instead. which i don't mind.
but for the meantime i have about six projects to juggle among two and a half people.
and three broken video cameras.
all will be well. all will be well. all will be well... *positive thoughts! positive thoughts!*
awwwwwww
an exception story, as HJNTIY would say :D
but i believe everyone is someone's exception. ^__^
Sunday, June 14, 2009
three sleepovers and a nap
so it was a long weekend and by thursday night, jacob had started to unintentionally sleep over. honest. and don't get naughty thoughts. it's because we've been playing video games, or watching Iron Chef at 3AM, or watching movies. then we'd realize it's too late/early to go home.
right now he is napping. we just had a full two-hour practice session with some friends and we had a quite heavy snack after (rice and viand, in a chinese restaurant, and we know nothing's "light" in a chinese restaurant). we made a quick detour to buy some movies before heading for home. and now he's napping. he's been nodding off throughout the day. we haven't really had enough proper sleep. we did errands too. brought the PS3 for repairs and now i have to decide if i want to spend another chunk for having the lens changed or just invest in a newer model. i want to play Little Big Planet.
last thursday, L and i got into some hypothetical discussion about possibilities of... spinning off. we're really beginning to get tired of the templates and the mandatory workshops that only teach more templates.
i seriously need to plan my weekly menus.
i didn't get to do much personal this long weekend because i was only too willing to spend the time with jacob. the downside is, now i have to cram what i didn't get to do during the weekdays. oh well. the time with jacob was well worth it. ^___^
right now he is napping. we just had a full two-hour practice session with some friends and we had a quite heavy snack after (rice and viand, in a chinese restaurant, and we know nothing's "light" in a chinese restaurant). we made a quick detour to buy some movies before heading for home. and now he's napping. he's been nodding off throughout the day. we haven't really had enough proper sleep. we did errands too. brought the PS3 for repairs and now i have to decide if i want to spend another chunk for having the lens changed or just invest in a newer model. i want to play Little Big Planet.
last thursday, L and i got into some hypothetical discussion about possibilities of... spinning off. we're really beginning to get tired of the templates and the mandatory workshops that only teach more templates.
i seriously need to plan my weekly menus.
i didn't get to do much personal this long weekend because i was only too willing to spend the time with jacob. the downside is, now i have to cram what i didn't get to do during the weekdays. oh well. the time with jacob was well worth it. ^___^
Saturday, June 13, 2009
snoop oops
i didn't mean to. but her name would not leave my head so i had to exorcise it.
jacob used my internet to check his email and forgot to log out. when i tried to log in, his account was still open and there was a message from a girl whose first name matched that of his ex. it was a request to add him to her chat list.
so i couldn't get her name out of my head so i googled her. and i came to enough information to deduce that she is indeed the ex.
and i know jacob has said before (months before we even got together), when ukitake asked him, that he has totally moved on. but now i can perfectly understand girls who could not help feeling that twinge of jealousy and apprehension (especially if you saw pics and could not help admitting she is kinda pretty, and very young).
anyway, as The Secret says, believe that it is yours and the Universe will move accordingly.
jacob is mine. i am his exception. *mad look* *LOL*
jacob used my internet to check his email and forgot to log out. when i tried to log in, his account was still open and there was a message from a girl whose first name matched that of his ex. it was a request to add him to her chat list.
so i couldn't get her name out of my head so i googled her. and i came to enough information to deduce that she is indeed the ex.
and i know jacob has said before (months before we even got together), when ukitake asked him, that he has totally moved on. but now i can perfectly understand girls who could not help feeling that twinge of jealousy and apprehension (especially if you saw pics and could not help admitting she is kinda pretty, and very young).
anyway, as The Secret says, believe that it is yours and the Universe will move accordingly.
jacob is mine. i am his exception. *mad look* *LOL*
Thursday, June 11, 2009
lunch with edward
... and jinta. although edward was the one who initiated the invitation. fifteen months ago i would have died at the thought and would have probably offered a limb for the possibility.
but as with all things edward, everything is just too late. and so i sat there happily munching my way through a huge bowl of roka salata, bella-ache-proof.
and moments like these only serve to affirm my love for jacob. ^__^
but as with all things edward, everything is just too late. and so i sat there happily munching my way through a huge bowl of roka salata, bella-ache-proof.
and moments like these only serve to affirm my love for jacob. ^__^
bugged
i'm still getting that antsy, restless, agitated, bugged feeling and i'm not sure where it's coming from. still can't put a finger on it.
on a positive note: jacob dropped by last night. i prepared tacos for dinner. he said he was going home early. he was particularly exhausted last night from work and practice. but he ended up leaving at around 230AM (why do i never get used to this? hahaha! even since we were just starting to hang out he ALWAYS ends up going home at least two hours later than he had originally planned.)
he sketched out some plans for friday since it's going to be a holiday. and he said he might drop by again tonight so we can watch Breaking the Magician's Code together at 9PM.
aagh. this agitation is a bummer.
on a positive note: jacob dropped by last night. i prepared tacos for dinner. he said he was going home early. he was particularly exhausted last night from work and practice. but he ended up leaving at around 230AM (why do i never get used to this? hahaha! even since we were just starting to hang out he ALWAYS ends up going home at least two hours later than he had originally planned.)
he sketched out some plans for friday since it's going to be a holiday. and he said he might drop by again tonight so we can watch Breaking the Magician's Code together at 9PM.
aagh. this agitation is a bummer.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
new kitchen stuff!
okay, so my shopping-for-home mojo is not missing. i finally got a hand mixer for making all those cheesecakes and muffins. and i finally got a griller! yay!
finally got around to claiming a free mobile phone -- i got it from purchasing my ref last october.
finally got around to picking up a few personal stuff from my parents' house, specifically a boxful of photo negatives which i intend to get converted digitally.
i'm home now and i will plan a menu for the week, clean up my desk area and do some yoga later in the evening.
finally got around to claiming a free mobile phone -- i got it from purchasing my ref last october.
finally got around to picking up a few personal stuff from my parents' house, specifically a boxful of photo negatives which i intend to get converted digitally.
i'm home now and i will plan a menu for the week, clean up my desk area and do some yoga later in the evening.
my shopaholic mojo is missing!
i'm on leave today to process some papers for my home loan. but that won't take me all day. i had originally planned to turn the rest of the day into a shopping day to spruce up my wardrobe. but now all i want to do is stay home and CLEAN UP. there's a bit of a clutter-clearing mood hovering and i just can't seem to rest until my place is perfectly in order. nothing useless, everything with a purpose.
hmmm, maybe that's a pre-requisite before i get my shopping mojo back. clear away more of the old to make way for the new.
in any case, i am almost literally running out of things to wear. more than half my clothes are too worn out and many don't match anymore because their matches have been disposed of previously.
another possibility: plan a wardrobe and have my dressmaking aunt make it. hmm. sounds like a good (and inexpensive) idea.
okay, leaving now to get some legal documents, then lunch at my parents' house and then back home. maybe when i've worked things out better at home my mojo will return.
hmmm, maybe that's a pre-requisite before i get my shopping mojo back. clear away more of the old to make way for the new.
in any case, i am almost literally running out of things to wear. more than half my clothes are too worn out and many don't match anymore because their matches have been disposed of previously.
another possibility: plan a wardrobe and have my dressmaking aunt make it. hmm. sounds like a good (and inexpensive) idea.
okay, leaving now to get some legal documents, then lunch at my parents' house and then back home. maybe when i've worked things out better at home my mojo will return.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
errand day tomorrow
i need to process some documents for my loan release next month so i'm taking a leave tomorrow.
luckily, tomorrow turned out to be a rally day in the business district so i'm glad i timed my leave perfectly.
luckily, tomorrow turned out to be a rally day in the business district so i'm glad i timed my leave perfectly.
Friday, June 5, 2009
exhausted
i just realized now why i felt so exhausted last night that i literally just peeled off my clothes and dropped into bed when i got home. i only had two hours of sleep, was in the office by 7AM, worked straight until lunch and then lunch with my best friend T, and then worked straight until an unexpected extension of a meeting that had me leaving the office an hour and a half later than i had planned. traffic was bad and it took me more than an hour to get to my parents house to pick my sister so we could go to the supermarket. supermarket shopping was a bit rushed because it was the last open hour. then took my sister home before i finally got home. i arrived home at almost 11PM.
jacob wasn't feeling well and stayed home. he was planning to spend the evening with me and have us watch an awaited AXN (or was it NG) program together. in a way it was a blessing in disguise because i got caught up in a series of delays and rushes and would not have been able to really spend time with him. i would have also been too tired and would finally end up falling asleep on my face while he's there.
today the weather is still grayish although i can see the sun trying to peek through the thick rainclouds. i'm thinking of sneaking out early from work to sleep.
jacob wasn't feeling well and stayed home. he was planning to spend the evening with me and have us watch an awaited AXN (or was it NG) program together. in a way it was a blessing in disguise because i got caught up in a series of delays and rushes and would not have been able to really spend time with him. i would have also been too tired and would finally end up falling asleep on my face while he's there.
today the weather is still grayish although i can see the sun trying to peek through the thick rainclouds. i'm thinking of sneaking out early from work to sleep.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
keeping busy
jacob has been under the weather since monday. and i'm assuming that's why he's been so quiet. sleeping all day.
meanwhile i'm keeping myself busy with work (as if i need to exert any effort to be that). i am still getting that antsy, restless feeling about work.
today i deliberately made myself have a day-away. in the process i got myself a bit updated about what's new in the malls and i also got some bursts of inspiration on how to get through some minor mental blockages particularly about the training modules that seem to be taking forever to get sorted out.
i thought i'd get some retail therapy but surprisingly i could not muster enough enthusiasm to engage in it. i just ended up buying an extra saucepan, some storage boxes and a boxed set of Leopard, iLife and iWork (much cheaper than actually getting myself a new Macbook -- i'll just spruce up my iMac).
meanwhile i'm keeping myself busy with work (as if i need to exert any effort to be that). i am still getting that antsy, restless feeling about work.
today i deliberately made myself have a day-away. in the process i got myself a bit updated about what's new in the malls and i also got some bursts of inspiration on how to get through some minor mental blockages particularly about the training modules that seem to be taking forever to get sorted out.
i thought i'd get some retail therapy but surprisingly i could not muster enough enthusiasm to engage in it. i just ended up buying an extra saucepan, some storage boxes and a boxed set of Leopard, iLife and iWork (much cheaper than actually getting myself a new Macbook -- i'll just spruce up my iMac).
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
yay! my decal has shipped!
i ordered this from Etsy last week. i've decided that this is what i want to put on the wall by my bed. ^__^
O
do you remember Sesame Street and how each episode is sponsored by two letters and a number?
well today i would like to pay tribute to the letter "O".
^_____^ *grin*
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