things falling into place

that's how it feels.

just like the fact that my best friend got a job and will be starting next week! and a pretty nice job it seems. she's been making me green with envy with her months-long work hiatus but i know she also wanted to get busy again. i'm so happy for her! (and maybe she will send me some cookies...)

every day i get little subtle but distinct signs that going is the way to go. jacob is helping me out with the legal parts.

i have also decided that maybe i should seriously consider having my own business for starters - a sole proprietorship which i can just then not renew when the other thing happens. i just really want to be safe legally with every step. I NEED THAT ACCOUNTANT, DEAR UNIVERSE!

the sideline project is going pretty well too. i have very good feelings about it. ^__^

dream days

wake up within 7-8AM
take a run and/or do yoga
breakfast
clean up
work
prepare lunch
eat lunch
clean up
work
or maybe a quick nap and then work
sign off from work at around 6PM
prepare dinner
eat dinner
relax:
- read books
- watch dvds
- play games
- be with jacob
- write
- make art journals
- sleep whenever i feel like it

have the option to wake up later than usual
have option to take the day off
do an overtime and not have to go to the office next day
have the option to stop work in the middle of the day when my brain won't budge
do my groceries on time
bake while working

no more 10-hour workshops where i only get to have valid and relevant speaking lines for fifteen minutes
no more workshops i don't feel efficiently useful in, period.
no more strategic planning meetings.
clear-cut projects with beginnings and ends.
compensation commensurate to skill and effort given. hence, double work means double pay.
perfect pacing
enough sleep
time to workout
time to practice

the calm before the storm, undercurrents before an earthquake

so lately i have been deeply agitated.

and now suddenly i am calm and hopeful and a little bit scared.

the year of resolutions and then the year of harvest.

but first one must plant the seeds.

a year of resolution indeed

this year has been a year of resolution.

next year is a year of harvest.

i don't know how i know. but so far i have been pretty right about the distinct energies i'm picking up. seemingly random signals when i happen to stumble into the frequency of the universe.

last year was a year of shifts and breaking away from the old, of broken status quo for some. of questions thrown down at one's face demanding an unwavering answer.

it's a life's journey chaptered in years. and the trick is make the most of the time given, and to be strong.

this year is almost over and there is but one last question. yesterday i believe i have come much much closer to the answer. it brought me such a vast feeling of relief that i knew i was on the right track. and add to that the tingling and humming of energy inside me as my mind and my heart locked on to the answer i have been beating around the bush with.

there will be changes. big ones. important ones. but i know what i want now. oh, now i know for sure what i want, who i want, all the ingredients of my happy life.

it's almost funny how i am such a late bloomer and yet my impatience is such a pain.

now i want a serious coffeemaker

it's a holiday so toushiro suggested an activity. mainly watching part 2 of Red Cliff at his house and then ururu wanted a trip to Vanilla Bean Cafe as well. sadly, jacob could not join us because he had a family trip to go to. (missed him so badly. i had fun but it's always never the same without him.)

so we all met up at around 530PM only to discover that the cafe was closed. we ended up buying take out from Coffee Bean (just cakes and sandwiches). toushiro wanted to show off his coffee-making machine and skills so we didn't buy any coffee.

the coffee turned out to be pretty good. i had two servings. and after watching how it was done (complete with steaming and frothing the milk) i wanted my very own coffeemaker. *sigh*

then we watched the movie, after which the other girls had craving for chinese food so we eventually found ourselves in North Park eating dimsum and noodles and finishing off pots of hot tea.

it was a fun evening. and i missed jacob.

digital de-cluttering

cleaning up photos via aperture
configuring mobileme syncs
organizing bookmarks
backing up online journals
canceling subscriptions i don't ever read
making space for fish work
reviewing and de-cluttering software
updating software