i owe a long post. it's still in draft stage but should be posted within the day.

it's 5:37 am and i am up. i won't have to leave for the office until 8am. my dad's driving me and my sis because my car is on coding. i would have preferred to drive myself at 6am but last night's yoga knocked me out. i was practically crawling into bed by 9:30pm, unable to hold on to consciousness. so i got up at 4am and started doing chores that should've been done last night: washed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen, changed the bedsheets, swept the floor, you get the drill. on the other hand i was also able to have a leisurely breakfast.

i had a bit of cry after finding out that our friend adam is going to be okay, he was taken to the hospital yesterday with much pain in his throat and he seemed to be drowning in his own fluids. diagnosis said he had some kind of tonsillitis. he will never smoke again. he is now on demerol and antibiotics and should be able to eat food again by tomorrow. he and his wife sexynomad will go through a major lifestyle change when they get back home. a cosmic year, indeed.

last night i was the only one in attendance for the yoga class so i had the good fortune of enjoying a one-on-one class. i got pointers on certain stretches i could do before and after my sword practice to counter the yang with the yoga's yin. then i had a good talk with my teacher (who was also my former boss, whom i respected and admired so much) and we got talking about 2008's ruffling the status quo and 2009 bringing resolutions and fruition. she said that she's going to send me an article about 2009 being a cosmic year. we both got goosebumps as we shared each other's take on what's happening at the level of the soul and the world consciousness. yes we seem to sound esoteric but the whole point is, there is a higher order and a higher power. and being attuned to it will help make our lives fulfill their potential.

in many ways i am indeed coming to a resolution about my bella-esque story. and every little chapter takes me farther and deeper into the path that leads to jacob. (i've been on an email exchange with edward for the past couple of days about next saturday's batch party and more and more i realize i won't be able to take him in daily doses.) (jacob didn't message yesterday but i didn't feel worried or needy. just sure that he'll be popping in again soon, in serendipitous timing as usual.)

i watched the most recent episodes of samantha who? yesterday and sam's mom said something that struck me. something like "just because he's perfect on paper doesn't mean he's perfect for you." and on that note, i end this post.