there's iWork 09!

and the changes from iWork 08 will probably be minimal but still, i wants it, heeheehee.

had dinner with my best friend T last night and it turned out she had a 2008 moment -- she is actually reconsidering her canada plans. i knew it! 2008 was a year of triggers and shifts and breaking out of boundaries/molds/ whatever it is that has kept the status quo. 2008 made us question old definitions, old plans -- basically 2008 gave all of us that window of chance to check how we're steering the course of our lives, and a free ticket through the tollways in case we want to change directions. and discounted gasoline.

i got home at 915pm and my cat mogg was particularly vocal, meowing all over the place and when i picked him up he was purring like a small engine, apparently overjoyed that i was home.

i was tired and just swept the floor (mogg had tattered feathers and chewed up hairbands scattered about), washed up and then tucked into bed with a book. i didn't get a full night sleep though as i kept waking up as if waiting for something and my dreams were chopped up in unintelligible pieces.

when i made myself get up at 6am i was seriously tempted to take a day off. i imagined spending two hours leisurely browsing the supermarket aisles as i stocked up on necessities and indulgences, and then spending a good hour at the gym, and then taking a loooong nap.

but i've done a lot of that recently, little escapes and little procrastinations, just because i knew i could. and maybe i shouldn't. in little ways i've been postponing little errands, refusing to be harassed into "musts". maybe i should re-assess and see if maybe this procrastinating is spilling over into the bigger, more important things.

it's like when i procrastinate i could make believe even for a short while that the moment i dread will not come, that it will not happen, and therefore i will not have to deal with it. and there will be no pain, no discomfort.

this is certainly a long way off from my carpe diem days.