full moon night, full circle, the saga continues

the moon is perfectly full tonight, a silver disc almost begging for poetry gleaming in the night sky.

i finished my work at lunchtime and then i napped and then went to watch practice. edward was quick to approach and to ask why i wasn't practicing.

ururu got to see my place. she tagged along with me and my sis. my sis took her shower at my place. ururu got to pet mogget.

it was our christmas party and i guess part of the 2008 quirk- i actually won in the raffle, and not the least prize either. and i accuraely predicted (although jokingly) about ururu and yachiru winning.

the frenchwoman predicted that all of us girls would win, and we did. she also said she thinks it will be edward, not jacob.

we had coffee at UCC. edward took off my charm bracelet to closely inspect the charms hanging from it, and then put it back on my wrist.

jacob's knee touched mine under the table for most of the evening. do guys actually notice these things? and there was always so little space between us. sometimes i don't even notice it until i do notice it, like how close we tend to place ourselves to each other.

edward kept on reminding me about giving him the info he needs so he could give design tips for my place.

the group might go out for a movie later. edward suggested it.

jacob, of course, took me home.

there was a rather amusing moment (to me, at least) when edward told me that he has met jacob's friend who does electronic stuff. he then asked me if i know this friend already and i said yes, and there was this tiny tiny pause. because, if anyone comes to think of it, how and why would i know this friend? --- another moment when my snowglobe world with jacob is almost spilled into the open. why does it have to be a snowglobe world anyway? that remains a puzzle to me. is it something that both jacob and i consciously keep from the others? but why? and why is it that it seems and feels almost awkward to talk about it with the group? how come we could not casually mention about these other things we do and share outside of the group? i guess it is partly because that revelation would somehow brand us in a certain way, and maybe we are not ready for that kind of definition. most likely he is not ready for the possible turns and twists that definition could take.

during the evening i kept on thinking back to a year ago. when i first caught on edward staring, and how he asked about me afterwards. and then the mad year that followed, now culminating in this cliffhanging chapter. a year ago i was only dreaming of being able to break through his inner circle. now we actually have some kind of relationship akin to those in anime where nothing is definite and yet anything is possible. despite what he said in the card. despite what i wrote in the journal. and add to that the layer of the jacob story, when a year ago i could not even begin to imagine he would bother with me, or that we would even have this kind of relationship that has exceeded all my expectations.

my spirit remains to be an eternal fount of hope, a believer in fairy tales, a heart ever optimistic in happily-ever-afters.

life is good. it will continue to be so. love, well, has a way of unfolding its story in perfect ways you could never hope to figure out.