sick

since yesterday.

i suspect it is some kind of severe exhaustion or fatigue. i looked up some of the symptoms online and i'm not too surprised.

my body and head ache. i am overcome by extreme sleepiness. i cannot sustain long waking hours, much less concentrated activities such as working. i can't even finish a single tv episode because i start getting almost nauseated by having to stare at a screen for a prolonged period of time. my brain would not function well, i could not focus nor put together much coherent thought.

hence i am on an unplanned leave. yesterday and today. today i hope to totally snap out of this.

because i've been sleeping so much i have also been having many dreams. mostly the normal kind where one does normal stuff in weird places or weird ways. it's almost like rebooting. sleep has never been such a blissful escape.

generally i feel unbalanced and i'm trying to regain a balance. i'm just finding it harder to do now than the usual. it seems i could no longer just bribe myself with shopping for stuff.

i think i need to return to my poetry soon. maybe that will help.